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2/23/09 10:14 pm - Hiatus hate us

Hey livejournal. I really want to delete you but I'm too attatched to my little vault of memories filled with pictures and words and drama and high school. Sorry to all of those who I offended with my lyrics and hateful words. I am really not as ignorant, reckless and ridiculous as I have made myself out to be on this internet community. Not quite anyway. It's so silly! Nice to know you.

2/20/09 05:32 pm

Fuck you!

2/18/09 11:14 pm - Don't keep the lion in a coma

This wilderness up in my head
This wilderness up in my head
This wilderness needs to get right out of my clothes and get into my bedroom

Lion in a coma
Lying in a coma

Sometimes the sun will shine
Yes I am just feeling fine
Sometimes I'm not aware
Where I am or what I care
Sometimes I'm well to do
But I don't know what to do
Sometimes I don't agree
With my thoughts on being free

2/17/09 10:43 pm

I got a job

2/16/09 11:27 pm - I'm skipping a step

My brain is totally numb right now but it's okay because I love you so much and I don't wanna wear out the words but it's like they're tattooed to my tongue and we're that disgusting annoying couple minus the disgusting and minus the annoying but plus the awesome.

I'm going to sleep like a fetus tonight. I don't think I'll go to Jacksonville. HOLY FUCKK

2/15/09 12:27 am - 10 Hits on Google For "Katy likes to"

1. Katy likes people who are original, interesting and open minded. She enjoys hanging around with such people and having a good time. ...

2. Katy Likes the Lego Store picture published by aylaal911.

3. Katy likes her drink: Katy has revealed she had a drinking problem while waiting for her big break and feels she ...

4.Katy likes to climb a couple of mountains before an early ... I know it’s supposed to be Katy likes to, but I had to waive the rules a ...

5. That's why Katy's distinctive 1940s retro look makes a perfect costume for Christmas! Katy likes to stick to body-hugging silhouettes with sweetheart ...

6. I love Katy and her song and Jesse and his song and now I know that Katy likes Jesse's song and maybe he likes her song and now we're all connected and a ...

7. Katy likes to vet all her photos before they appear on the website, but the truth is far less glamorous. She's been wearing the same combat ...

8.Katy likes to kiss girls ... She released her debut album Katy Hudson in 2001, although this was mainly ...

9.For her curvy, quirky bowls and delicate lampshades Katy likes to use finer clays like bone china and porcelain creating a smooth, often translucent ...

10.Katie likes to run around. In cotton panties and a crown. She driving all the boys insane. Suckin' on a candy cane. ...

Happy Valentines Day. I love you

2/11/09 10:20 pm - omg

I just dropped my math class at cpcc. FUCK YEAH! No more annoying MethLab, no more lame Meth Homework, No more classes on Tuesday, Thursday, or Friday. Just French on Monday and Wednesday, then I can spend the days with my babyhead. Then I have a Survey of Mathematics class starting in mid march, as well as a Business class.. those should be a breeze. Oh and of course the Anthropology class that I watch on TV... HA

Bad news, I might not have enough credits to transfer to UNCG by the Fall of 09... Unless of course I sacrifice my beach trip with my moms side of the family and Case:( At least there's still Bonnaroo. Which is a definite now. I just need to find a completely certain ride to TN-which Greg halfway offered to do.

Greyhound to Jacksonville, Florida arrives at 12 A.M. on March 6. It departs at 6:30 A.M. on March 14. Hopefully, wallet permitting, I will be seeing Girl Talk and Broken Social Scene and Devotchka the weekend of my arrival!!!

This is Devotchka btw:



I have been on my bike for hours over the course of the past two days. My legs are screaming at me. I have been recording music for hours over the course of the past two days. My lungs are screaming at me.

LETS GO GOOD NEWS

2/10/09 12:06 am - I am excited about this

http://www.myspace.com/koalanoise

I put a few silly songs on there to listen to if you want to listen to a few silly songs.

2/8/09 06:20 pm - CLOH

Current Length Of Hair:

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i just cut it but it's still long, yepah!

2/8/09 05:30 pm - I GOT TICKETS

I GOT TICKETS I GOT TICKETS

2/4/09 09:35 pm - Why haven't humans evolved into a higher form?

I believe it is because of several things. Namely, natural selection. While technology develops, we as humans have more and more ways of defeating the natural causes of death or wipe out. We are able to fight great forces with machines.

That is the perfect segway into my belief that because of technology, humans minds have become clouded and confused about our purpose here. Perhaps in the case of the apes, because they had such primary things to focus on such as survival in terms of basic meals, shelter, and mating, they were "allowed" to move on to the next stage in development, being human. Because humans haven't reached enlightenment or self actualization as a whole, but only a very small fraction, we can not advance.

Until a species figures out it's purpose, it is either killed off or maintains a stagnant life as it is. The practice of inner space is one way to get slightly closer to the next evolution.

2/4/09 04:50 pm - BONNAROO LINE-UP:

Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band PHISH (2 shows) Beastie Boys Nine Inch Nails David Byrne Wilco Al Green SNOOP DOG ELVIS COSTELLO Solo Erykah Badu Paul Oakenfold Ben Harper and Relentless7 The Mars Volta TV on the Radio Yeah Yeah Yeahs Gov't Mule ANDREW BIRD Band of Horses Merle Haggard MGMT moe. The Decemberists GIRL TALK BON IVER BELA FLECK & Toumani Diabate Rodrigo y Gabriela Galactic The Del McCoury band OF MONTREAL Allen Toussaint Coheed & Cambria Booker T & the DBTs DAVID GRISMAN Quintet Lucinda Williams Animal Collective Gomez Neko Case Down Jenny Lewis Santogold Robert Earl Keen Citizen Cope Femi Kuti and the Positive Force The Ting Tings Robyn Hitchcock & The Venus 3 Grace Potter and the Nocturnals Kaki King GRIZZLY BEAR King Sunny Ade Okkervil River St. Vincent Zac Brown Band Raphael Saadiq Ted Leo and the Pharmacists CRYSTAL CASTLES Tift Merritt Brett Dennen Mike Farris and the Roseland Rhythm Revue Toubab Krewe People Under The Stairs Alejandro Escovedo Vieux Farka Toure Elvis Perkins in Dearland Cherryholmes Yeasayer Todd Snider Chairlift Portugal. The Man. The SteelDrivers Midnite The Knux The Low Anthem Delta Spirit A.A. Bondy The Lovell Sisters Alberta Cross More Artists to Be Announced!


I've never really cared much for Bonnaroo, or the idea of going... not since eighth grade anyway. I used to keep a milk gallon jug in my closet with drawings of Lisa and I dancing at bonnaroo with different schemes on how to get there. Inside were over 34 dollars worth of change. I never went... but now is my chance. And this year is better than ever. HOLY FUCK, SUMMER '09, LOOKS LIKE THIS IS THE REAL PRE-COLLEGE EXPERIENCE, WITH REAL PRE-COLLEGE FRIENDS.

check out this fractile broccoli:
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2/1/09 07:50 pm

So UNCG didn't exactly knock my socks off. It is plain. Greensboro is plain. The cafeteria is plain, the dorms are plain, the buildings are plain. The student body seems pretty plain. Your assumption at this point is that I probably wont go there, but you know what they say about assuming!

I can't fucking wait to apply as a transfer and get the hell out of this fake world made of banks. Living in a dormitory with another human that i've never talked to in my life is going to be radical. I can't wait to share everything, from cookies to toilet paper to homework with a stranger. I can't wait to live in a brand new city, with brand new people, brand new job opportunities, and best of all a brand new fucking mind set. Then I will move in with my love and we will lay in bed and giggle and fight and eat ice cream and pet our kitten. And study. I will study hard and before I know it I will graduate.

I don't know if Greensboro is necessarily for me. But I do know that college is about learning how to deal with things. And it's about understanding the "real" world. And sometimes in the real world you end up in a place that you're not so sure about, but you make it work and it ends up being the most beautiful thing in the whole "real" world.

Last night while I was partyin it up in Chapel Hill with my old pals... my pupper Jane had a seizure. She's okay but I hope she stays okay while I'm off at school. Too much excitement at the puppy party?

On a lighter note, I'm almost finished with season three of LOST and dude-holy shit. That bitch is crazy.

1/30/09 09:44 pm - Tomorrow is the first day of the next three years.

I really hope I am impressed by UNCG. Case just sprung a surprise visit on me fer tomorrow and I can't wait to ditch the cooohn booul tour they would've probably given and explore the campus ourselves. Either way, I'm one step closer to getting out of Charlotte, and getting into an apartment wiff mah boo.

FUCK YEAH CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AND YOUR SINGLE, SLAM

p.s. I just started babysitting for a man i met a year ago named Mel. Mel never stops smiling. He told me that I was the most amazing 17 year old he had ever met. Now I am babysitting for his daughter. She is as awesome as he is, here's proof:

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These little guys are turning one tomorrow, and there will be a celebration at Davie Park at one o clock for those of you that would like to get mauled by tongues:

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If all goes according to plan I will be spending spring break '09 with my first love in Jacksonville, and upon my arrival-via train-we will see Girl Talk at a music festival in St. Augustine:

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I have been having dreams almost every night for a week that I am her and am in love with Sawyer. And Jack. Simultaneously. Needless to say I am on episode 14 of the 3rd season and holy shit if you aren't on board, get lost:

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And here is my beautiful idiothead:

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ISN'T LIFE AWESOME?!

1/18/09 11:07 pm - Too much...

Man, these things are intriguingly fun to pick yourself from, have fun.

1. You are one of the few friends I truly have right now. There are many shallow and two faced loves running around and you are not one of them, nor do I imagine you ever will be. You will grow to be something incredible, regardless of the fact that you're making such big changes in your college life towards something you have been getting judged for. I hope you get the college experience you're looking for-I know you will though. You are always there to slap me in the face.. or run around re-arranging deer decorations with me. I love you very much. Don't be so far away, me and your lover miss you.

2. You... kind of disgust me. Although I think you are an AWESOME person with so many great ideas and funny jokes, and you are beautiful in a very unique way, I just can't get over the amount of times you have hurt me and people you know. Maybe it's a reaction to a boy that we both had feelings for, and now you are bitter. Maybe I really am just totally insane. Either way, I don't think I'll ever forget the things you said to me when I was down.

3. You are changing into a more mature version of yourself, and it seems like you've gotten some of that way without being totally spoiled. You are one of the best human beings I know.. even if you do get to frank sometimes or never take off the same outfit you wear every day. I told you I am going to dedicate a small book of comics to you.. I wasn't lying. I'll love you forever, and I hope things keep getting OK between us again so we can jump off a cliff together.

4. You are an amazing and beautiful girl who I have known since my most awkward days of 12 years old. You used to tell me how to wear my hair, and then we both cut ours off on the same day, in the same way, without knowing it. We can laugh for eight hours together. We can get mad hyphy... for three weeks straight. You haven't found someone to treat you as well as you deserve, but you will. And your dreams will come true. Stop living six hours away asshole.

5. Remember that one day when you said "Man, wouldn't it be weird if I was looking at this picture some day and I didn't recognize you and thought 'Huh, who is that' when looking at you?" while looking at the picture of us on the last day of high school? I wonder if you would feel that way looking at the picture today. I wish I was your best friend again, because you are so much fun and so real and so good at getting hyphy to mad jamz. Even though sometimes you are a total chonga, I will always love you and I hope everything works out between you and you know who-and you know you can always talk to me about it.

6. Thanks for always being there to say "aw" when I complain. You are not physically in my life much anymore because of school and things.. but I know yr there. Keep yr head up when boys jump out of the picture, my little raggedy ann.

7. I've been thinking about you a ton lately. I know you wont read this unless you're creepy. I miss eating at sub station with you. I miss watching It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia with you. I miss Sandy. I miss that rope in your backyard, you freak. I miss your humor and the weird way your basement room smelled. I miss you "quitting" smoking and then buying me cigarettes and bumming one. Stop living ACROSS THE COUNTRY, FUCKHEAD. 4:30

8. One time, you sent me a book of your art, and I don't even think I paid for it. Another time, you sent me a letter about how the Beatles remind you of me. I am listening to John Lennon right now.. but that wasn't planned. You have huge hair, it's always seemed pretty cool to me. You are shy and I wish we had actually biked to shyly talk at a coffee shop that rainy day.

9. You, sir, are the love of my up-to-now life. I felt crazy saying JUST life, because... well who knows I could get Alzheimers and totally forget you and then all that would be a lie. But that would never happen. Anyway.. I can't believe we have come so far. I feel like I could cling to you like a little koala in a tree for the rest of forever. I hope we really do follow our dreams and create together. Hanging out with you is like being on a drug, even when you really annoy me and make weird faces. I have written so many secret songs about you and secretly lost them. Sorry if you feel suffocated sometimes, I just have a hard time now that i've realized how lucky I am.

10. You are the man I go to to learn about music. You will not read this. I love so many bands now because of you, including: Smashing Pumpkins, Beach House, Grizzly Bear, and most importantly Ultimate Optimist. I hope you find someone that loves you forever.

11. You thought I hated you for a real long time, but I actually didn't. I was annoyed for a period of time that you seemed to try to stand out so much, but once you got comfortable in your own skin ( moreso ) I realized you were alright. We talk mostly only on the internet.. but Sociology was a fun class to hate everyone in with you.

12. I can't believe how much you've grown up. When I met you you were just a little sister hiding in her room. Maybe 9 years old. I was 12. You are hilarious, and wish you were black. I am so glad your brother wasn't always that awesome to hang out with so I could just wander into your room and listen to your ipod with you.

13. I've always liked your sense of humor, and wished we could've been friends. You seemed to be pretty tight with your group, which after a period of time, stopped liking my group. I hope you find your place all the way out in Coldsville, USA.

14. You make me sad. We were best friends ever in high school, and had SO MUCH FUN together. I don't think I ever got as close to many people as I did to you. It's too bad our relationship had to grow sour. I wish you would be more confident, and less out of it. You are worth a lot, and too smart for your own good. Find your place, I know it's coming along.

15. I have always ALWAYS thought about how fucking gnarly it would be to be best friends with you. I thought you were british when I first met you. haha. You are adorable, very smart, and watch too much political tv. I am going to miss you while you're at school, but I hope to be there soon.

16. Please get well. You make me cry, but you also make me fly. I will always care about you more than most everyone. Fuck you for hurting girls, including me. Stop using.

17. I met you and instantly wanted to be around you as rebound. I actually really liked you, and you made me feel very confident. I want to be friends you with you again, but you hold grudges and are immature. Fuck you for being an asswipe sometimes.

18. Making music with you was unbelievable. I wish you were more consistent with ideas because you have a lot of good ones. Take care of my babyhead. Get a little older.

19. Sometimes your routines and anal-ness really freak me out. I never thought you would date the boy you date. You are always there for me. I wish we had never gone through bad times, but I think it strengthened our friendship. I have known you for so long.

20. You are the missing member of the KKK. You seem interesting and I can appreciate your cynical, dry humor. Visit CLT sometime.

21. I think you are one of the most beautiful girls I know. I wish I would see you at CPCC sometime. You do great art. You have a great mind. Lets make music and be best friends.

22. You are also a beautiful girl. I am worried about you. You are getting so small and fragile. You act like you are unaware of it. You have an angels voice. I want to stay with you in Chapel Thrill for a few days.

23. I told you once that you were the most good-looking human on earth. We decided Virginia was second and I was third. You art incredibly talented. I'm glad to see your life is going well for you. I want you to come home from college.

1/17/09 01:03 am - FOUR MORE DAYS!!!

LOST is the best show evereverever. Claire just came back. I can't believe I have five more seasons to go.

1/13/09 09:33 pm

SOCIAL NETWORKS ARE SO OBNOXIOUS INCLUDING LIVEJOURNAL MYSPACE AND FACEBOOK. Actually just some of the turds that provoke you when you're most provokable are so obnoxious. I guess this is just asking for it again, huh. Why is everything so dysfunctional? At least I like school. Mostly. Hey Logan, Fuck you!


p.s. If you feel nervous about becoming an alchoholic, are interested in alchoholism, or are just looking for a good read, pick up DRY by Augusten Burroughs. I am only on chapter three and I'm hooked(haha).

1/13/09 03:25 pm - First math test

I had a panic attack today. It was horrifying. I was sitting in class beginning my pre-test, totally fine, slightly sleep deprived, but nothing unusual for me. About five questions in my hands started to shake and this weird, commanding voice kept yelling a narration of the test at me. I tried to breathe slowly to calm myself, but this just made it worse. My heart rate quickened and as I looked around, everything was moving quickly and violently. The heating vent suddenly seemed extremely and unbearably loud, the classroom full of quiet students chaotic, and the room smaller. I tried to focus on something familiar, so I looked up at Daniel and he was itching violently and rampantly turning the pages of his test, scribbling things as quickly as it seemed his hands could write. All the students suddenly seemed to be edgy and hurried, and the teachers eyes seemed to be darting back and forth. My hands were shaking so much at this point that I could hardly fill in bubbles. The only thing that seemed to calm me slightly was erasing things. I took a small sip of my coffee and the voice became maniacal and forceful saying things like "Ohhh YES COFFEE! CAFFEINE!! GIVE ME MORE!!" I felt as if someone had secretly slipped me some crack-based LSD.

I've never experienced anything like this, only during the reoccurring dream I have when I get very ill. Thank god the voices stopped and the hasty movements around me slowed as I neared the end of the test. It was such a simple test! So much for being okay after watching LOST with Case for twelve hours straight. Don't drink Red Bull.

1/12/09 07:01 pm

I am determined to get back there no matter what it takes.

1/11/09 11:41 pm

I'm so excited to start school tomorrow. I think I may only have one class in a classroom at central campus, and I will have a ride. That is if i drop math, which I am going to try to do by replacing it with COMIC ART CLASS on Saturdays.

I got a brand new bright yellow notebook for french class, but it looks like i'll really only be needing a one subject, not a three. ^.^

Apparently there are some benefits of staying in Charlotte for longer than you'd like to. Also of moving to Plaza Midwood within the next year. I am so glad for Case and Dailey to have moved in with one and other. It's really great what they are doing, and I can accept the change that has come between the three of us as musicians, for now.

I have come along way, am I progressing? I love the few friends I do have, because they are real. My comics have been great fun lately. I just purchased "Girlfriend in A Coma" and "Dry". I recommend "Fart Party" and "How I Lost My Virginity" aka "Unlikely".

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These are the days of the rolly backpack getting kicked, getting cuts from cheerleading squad tryouts, eggplant glasses, honeycomb_beachgirl, carolina blue bows, white eyeliner, bras that were too big, awkward, straight A's, diary writing, and innocence.
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